[BratscheWarrior]

Been thinking a lot about ways to show affection for the earth. Started a few days ago after it was clear that my affection for a certain person could/would not be returned. Based on the stalking i've done, no one i've had feelings for has ever felt the same way. Depressed me a bit. Felt alone (more than usual). So i decided to switch my affection from people (women in particular) to the earth. And i felt myself wanting to take advantage of people, squeeze them for my own gain. And that's not right. Doesn't jive with the Warrior's Way. So while i have concluded that no woman will see me in a romantic way, doesn't mean that i can't care for them, seek a relationship with them not based on what i can get out of them, but rather how i can blend/compliment them. And that will have to be enough.

So i ended up committing myself fully to the Way of the Warrior a few days ago. i have purpose. Started recapping again. Learned some new Passes. And began to really think how else i can show affection for this world. How to let it know that i'm ready to experience it's mysteries.

Not sure if there is a real question/discussion in my little stream of thoughts, but if this inspires any comments, go for it.