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Okay...so I'm new at this sharing stuff. I'm at a place in my life where I have recently started again... for awhile I chose for my energy focus to be elsewhere. I put up alot of walls -to stop the visions, voices, out of body experiences. (I do not recomend anyone do this -- It caused severe migraines and a total imballance of my soul. At the beginning of summer I decided to be "my self". Luckily I didn't have much problems reaquainting my self again -basic exercise of locating my toes -lol- accompanied with continued meditation helped I think. We have every Castenada book -My hubbie is a fan. I have been hesitant to read them (I did read the one about the sisters)-I have also started to read the Lagorda one -on his suggestion since its focus is more on women. My experiences are purely my own and the way I speak of them may be confusing as I have not shared them with anyone except my hubbie. My lucid dreaming has basically been me living in "My Wonderland" a world that seems more real and colorful than this one, a world I would prefer to stay in if I did not choose to remain attached to my responsibilities of motherhood. Has anyone done this? Ballance the worlds - I want both. I do not wish to cut my ties to my family - however I do wish to grow and blend these two realms ... I feel another pulling at me, a third... I don't really know how to describe this part... this feeling. Okay enough of me sharing ...till next time.
~Sherry