11-07-2007, 11:53 PM
Don't feel bad. We're all a bit confused!
My first thought of this guardian angel thing is that it is a neat way to not be responsible for ourselves. My belief is that there is nothing and no one that specifically looks out for our well-being. We have to do that for ourselves. Praying to some god or angel for protection is first, begging. Warriors are not beggers. Second, it places importances on the self in the form of self-pity. "Oh please god/angel, I've been suffering for the last week, PLEASE make this day a good one!." As if you (or any of us) are important. As Don Juan Matus said, "we are all shit too the very end."
That thing that is driving you crazy is the fact that you are deviating away from the societal view of the world. i have felt at times that i am being pulled apart. Sometimes, events will happen where i would have liked to have told people what i really thought, but you just can't...Let them live their pitiful little lives.
Connections happen. When you least expect it. And in unexpected forms. And these realizations might not be the grandiose ones that you would either expect or hear of. All of our experiences are different. And yet we strive for the same goal. Freedom.
My first thought of this guardian angel thing is that it is a neat way to not be responsible for ourselves. My belief is that there is nothing and no one that specifically looks out for our well-being. We have to do that for ourselves. Praying to some god or angel for protection is first, begging. Warriors are not beggers. Second, it places importances on the self in the form of self-pity. "Oh please god/angel, I've been suffering for the last week, PLEASE make this day a good one!." As if you (or any of us) are important. As Don Juan Matus said, "we are all shit too the very end."
That thing that is driving you crazy is the fact that you are deviating away from the societal view of the world. i have felt at times that i am being pulled apart. Sometimes, events will happen where i would have liked to have told people what i really thought, but you just can't...Let them live their pitiful little lives.
Connections happen. When you least expect it. And in unexpected forms. And these realizations might not be the grandiose ones that you would either expect or hear of. All of our experiences are different. And yet we strive for the same goal. Freedom.