[Lilac]

Stalking has always been an annoying issue to me, because I don't like lies and I have an obsession about being honest. I feel almost kind of pain if I have to lie, or I can't tell some things to people around me.

I think I'm just plainly being stupid person. One doesn't have to shout all the ideas in his/hers head to everybody. And when you think that everything a person "really" is is just because of the place of the assemblage point, then what is really true about a person? If I say that I'm a shy person, and that can be changed quite easely, am I saying the truth or am I telling a lie?

I used to write to a forum where there were some people who were interested in playing with people. I guess I got so sick and tired about that infinite sosiopathic playing, which I was part of myself (couple of times I did little nasty things to people myself too) that stalking seemed to be more and more discusting thing.

Now that some years have gone by I'm trying to see a new point of view into stalking. I have realized that I don't want to live my life as an idiot that I am and have been. I don't want to be clever or a psychopate or anything like that, I just want to be impeccable!

Indulging in being somebody and never trying to be anything different but that same person day after day is death to me.