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My worst area is the patience. I have none what so ever. Sweetness is possible sometimes, ruthlessness comes to me if I just can't care anymore about a certain thing or person. Cunning... maby sometimes.
But one should learn to live these things, to breath them in and out of him/herself...

Could you be talking of different kinds of patience, ruthlessness, cunning and sweetness?
Surely impeccable warriors don't practice self-masochism (patience), cruelty and indifference (ruthlessness), self-importance disguised as cunning, and fake kindness? It makes me think that stalking isn't possible without impeccability to make you feel 'right' moods instead of, say, our 'human version' of patience that is usually based on a mix of other energy-draining emotions.
Has it any sense at all to try to enter those four moods? They'd be fake, imagined and forced anyway, and they wouldn't be impeccable and would be draining. They must come in time, on their own accord. You can't enter what you don't yet know. If anything, these moods can't be forced and heavy, that must mean they're not the moods of stalking at all