10-08-2006, 08:55 AM
Reading these 'things' is to me, as refreshing as reading Castaneda; i'm enjoying it so much...
And i'm a guy that wasted 50 years in trying to live as someone else, 'be somebody'. I hope i didn't cause too much damage and destruction, but i wanted to be, then became, then was proud of being a stupid paratroops officer. I took part in two stupid wars and numerous 'behind enemy line operations'. I remember feeling depressed when another commando unit was chosen to 'go somewhere'; i was willing to 'kill' for the chance to kill!
Then, after leaving that unholy-land place, it took me up to just a few years ago, to be able to erase the feelings of guilt and shame for leaving 'my country'. The same brainwashing and conditioning made me waste so much energy and resources on wanting and then becoming an airline pilot (and what a stupid proud captain i was!). It started with the slogan "The Best Are for Flying"; when you hear these things from the day you are born you then are sure you 'KNOW' they are true. It then continued here with the glorification of pilots; all those 'Top Gun' movies.
Lilac, it took our friend Castaneda 13 years with the best teacher in the world, and then another twice as many, to change; don't worry, you're already a warrior (why waste energy on thinking about "Nagual"? And do you think i didn't indulge myself with similar thoughts?)
Hey DrakeWan, what's wrong in being a rootless rock? It took me a long time to get rid of most of my Personal History - my stupid roots. I remember, as a father, thinking that my and children roots are 'there' in that land. Then i became a little wiser and told my daughter that her roots are where she wants them to be. Now i know even better - having Personal History (roots) hinders warriorship. It waste so much energy in living, reliving and worrying about the personal (and general Past)
And i'm a guy that wasted 50 years in trying to live as someone else, 'be somebody'. I hope i didn't cause too much damage and destruction, but i wanted to be, then became, then was proud of being a stupid paratroops officer. I took part in two stupid wars and numerous 'behind enemy line operations'. I remember feeling depressed when another commando unit was chosen to 'go somewhere'; i was willing to 'kill' for the chance to kill!
Then, after leaving that unholy-land place, it took me up to just a few years ago, to be able to erase the feelings of guilt and shame for leaving 'my country'. The same brainwashing and conditioning made me waste so much energy and resources on wanting and then becoming an airline pilot (and what a stupid proud captain i was!). It started with the slogan "The Best Are for Flying"; when you hear these things from the day you are born you then are sure you 'KNOW' they are true. It then continued here with the glorification of pilots; all those 'Top Gun' movies.
Lilac, it took our friend Castaneda 13 years with the best teacher in the world, and then another twice as many, to change; don't worry, you're already a warrior (why waste energy on thinking about "Nagual"? And do you think i didn't indulge myself with similar thoughts?)
Hey DrakeWan, what's wrong in being a rootless rock? It took me a long time to get rid of most of my Personal History - my stupid roots. I remember, as a father, thinking that my and children roots are 'there' in that land. Then i became a little wiser and told my daughter that her roots are where she wants them to be. Now i know even better - having Personal History (roots) hinders warriorship. It waste so much energy in living, reliving and worrying about the personal (and general Past)