10-11-2006, 05:30 AM
Hey Lilac, don't drive me crazy. And as our friend Juan told carlos, "you have no right and no time to be impatient!".
You cannot forget in just a few years what you were taught, conditioned, brainwashed for so many years. For me, one of the most important things with those Mexican guys is their honesty and stories of many how long years it took each one of them to drop the distorted 'human form'.
You can count on 'them', the 'normal' people (in cooperation with your ego and old habits) not to let you leave slavery so easily. Ideally you take a break from the normal/average world, and return only when you are strong enough, but it ain't easy and cheap amymore. I don't listen to the radio, i have no TV, but it's hard here in the New York metro area to cut the noise. Every half an hour i have to listen to the church bells coming through my windows etc etc.
I though i got strong enough, but yesterday i sneaked (again) to see the news on the Internet. I read about something very stupid in Israel and i wasted a few hours thinking about it and about what to write on line as my response. I was strong enough this morning to to even go back to that online news.
It's a constant war with your ego and old habits, learn how to trick your ego and also require new habits so it will be easier to forget the old ones. But as long as you're aware of it and ask yourself as often as you can "what am i really doing now, and for what/whom?", then your freedom is guaranteed (it may take a few years, though)
You cannot forget in just a few years what you were taught, conditioned, brainwashed for so many years. For me, one of the most important things with those Mexican guys is their honesty and stories of many how long years it took each one of them to drop the distorted 'human form'.
You can count on 'them', the 'normal' people (in cooperation with your ego and old habits) not to let you leave slavery so easily. Ideally you take a break from the normal/average world, and return only when you are strong enough, but it ain't easy and cheap amymore. I don't listen to the radio, i have no TV, but it's hard here in the New York metro area to cut the noise. Every half an hour i have to listen to the church bells coming through my windows etc etc.
I though i got strong enough, but yesterday i sneaked (again) to see the news on the Internet. I read about something very stupid in Israel and i wasted a few hours thinking about it and about what to write on line as my response. I was strong enough this morning to to even go back to that online news.
It's a constant war with your ego and old habits, learn how to trick your ego and also require new habits so it will be easier to forget the old ones. But as long as you're aware of it and ask yourself as often as you can "what am i really doing now, and for what/whom?", then your freedom is guaranteed (it may take a few years, though)