12-19-2007, 02:34 PM
Like you say, there is no purpose. All I can do to describe what drives me is what Carlos called functional purpose, seeing energy. He (or DJ) has said the term sorcery isn't adequate. It means nothing to me.
Before you say I'm just quoting his books or regurgitating what he has said, Tensegrity has given me a glimpse at seeing energy directly. So far it has been fleeting. When I see a portion of the outlines of the luminous egg with my body, the urge of my eyes to take the lead automatically re-engages the interpretation system we are all sick of. Another thing is when it has happened, it had nothing to do with me 'doing' anything, it just happened. It was startling. The feeling it produced was one of longing. It seemed to give me an inkling of what Don Juan was saying about how the bond between a man and woman is superficial (or something like that). The real longing is for the energy body. That's what feels like has awakened or is awakening, or is trying to awaken.
And before you say there is nothing to do in order to awaken, I mean having the courage to 'un-shield' from friends and people around you. For me, people are trimmings. It takes a certain amount of intent to discard most of that. By 'that', I mean dealings with our fellow men. I think it's easy to remain stuck to interaction with discussion about controlled/uncontrolled folly.
I'm reminded of an Al Pacino quote from The Godfather Part III:
"Just when I think I'm out, they pull me back in"
The question then remains: After seeing energy, then what? I reckon the act of totally cancelling out this interpretation system would give the answer. Or maybe it wouldn't. I don't know.
Before you say I'm just quoting his books or regurgitating what he has said, Tensegrity has given me a glimpse at seeing energy directly. So far it has been fleeting. When I see a portion of the outlines of the luminous egg with my body, the urge of my eyes to take the lead automatically re-engages the interpretation system we are all sick of. Another thing is when it has happened, it had nothing to do with me 'doing' anything, it just happened. It was startling. The feeling it produced was one of longing. It seemed to give me an inkling of what Don Juan was saying about how the bond between a man and woman is superficial (or something like that). The real longing is for the energy body. That's what feels like has awakened or is awakening, or is trying to awaken.
And before you say there is nothing to do in order to awaken, I mean having the courage to 'un-shield' from friends and people around you. For me, people are trimmings. It takes a certain amount of intent to discard most of that. By 'that', I mean dealings with our fellow men. I think it's easy to remain stuck to interaction with discussion about controlled/uncontrolled folly.
I'm reminded of an Al Pacino quote from The Godfather Part III:
"Just when I think I'm out, they pull me back in"
The question then remains: After seeing energy, then what? I reckon the act of totally cancelling out this interpretation system would give the answer. Or maybe it wouldn't. I don't know.