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Maybe I don't belong here... maybe I'm not CC oriented. I thought I was. Maybe I am. Maybe it has evolved beyond what I expected.

Perhaps you don't and perhaps none of us do. Do I have a choice but to be here, where else am I, or would I be? Am I here to listen to others, to laugh at them, to cry with them or just to feel sorry for them and myself? Why are any of us here and what do we expect. It has come into my mentation that expectation is itself a rogue spook, placed like a road sign that is telling us of what is in store along the road. But being a road sign it does not hold this knowledge it just reflects the knowledge that has been assigned to it. It depends upon how the creator of the sign set it up. However, anyone else can come along and turn it around, and does this change the names of the destinations it points towards, or is the sign just wrong?

Not wanting to get caught in metaphorical storm walking this path, I appreciate seeing others along the road, when they appear. It is these gentle folk or, sometimes (and some would say, unluckily) out and out bandits, that adds dynamism to the journey. They reflect something within myself that has no destination nor goal, they are more reliable than the road signs, because reading them requires I read myself and learn the language of identity. And soon might I realise that I too am a road sign walking the path, and have been directing others totally unaware of the destinations I point towards.

Maybe you are not CC orientated, maybe you thought you were, and maybe you are. You have probably evolved beyond your expectations, however your words are inspiring and I take great delight in reading them. They are reliable pointers. I am still walking the road and can see the shadow of a signpost before me, but I am not dead yet, I still think I am this person etc... I still read others signposts perhaps out of laziness, sometimes out of wonder. Your sobriety does not go unnoticed.