12-20-2006, 10:24 AM
Well, it's true, petty tyrants are great teachers. Interacting with them is a great chance to observe them AND ourselves. One situation that i am in now is with a teacher who i willingly go to his class because he can be a huge asshole. But after keeping my eyes and ears open, i find out that he has to have some serious health problems. Swelling in the legs and having pale white hands are not normal. Now instead of feeling anger toward him, i now feel empathy. i've never been seriously ill, but it has to suck. So i try to laugh and have fun when he is around. There's no time for anger.
Finding a teacher, one cannot deliberatly do. Maybe people who do that are volunteers. And apparantly volunteers are not accepted on this path. Be patient, if you require a teacher or a benefactor, the Spirit will provide when the time is right. And be careful when you say that having a teacher will "speed things up." A teacher is not a nice little shortcut to freedom. And really, the only thing that you need is yourself. Find your weaknesses by yourself. It's stalking. It's saving energy. It's about doing your best in every situation, etc...
And don't worry about if Castaneda didn't burn from the Fire from Within. All that matters NOW is you. And i don't mean that in a self-important way of course.
Finding a teacher, one cannot deliberatly do. Maybe people who do that are volunteers. And apparantly volunteers are not accepted on this path. Be patient, if you require a teacher or a benefactor, the Spirit will provide when the time is right. And be careful when you say that having a teacher will "speed things up." A teacher is not a nice little shortcut to freedom. And really, the only thing that you need is yourself. Find your weaknesses by yourself. It's stalking. It's saving energy. It's about doing your best in every situation, etc...
And don't worry about if Castaneda didn't burn from the Fire from Within. All that matters NOW is you. And i don't mean that in a self-important way of course.