[Nick]

I take your point. My command of language in conveying my feelings needs a warrior's touch as well as the rest of my life. Winning suggests that I am investing in an outcome. At this moment in time though it does matter to me that I don't fall back into old behaviour patterns. Perhaps I should examine why this is so. I was going to write about why I feel it is important to keep on the path, but halfway through writing I realised it does not matter & that it should not become an obsession. Your comment has made me think. Thanks.