[ryan]

Realizing that self-importance was the only way I knew how to interact with people, places, and things, depressed me in the extreem. It was evident even in the manner in which I responded to the realization. To act in any other was beyond me. Sure I've thought about other ways but I've never acted with out expecting SOMETHING, anything, So when I thought I was making progress in erasing self-importance all I was doing was building a more elaborate aberration. How can you transcend something you can barely define, and what does transcend mean anyway? I'm beginning to see a cycle of transcendance, plateau, followed by a another trananscendane where one smashes the very paridigm that allowed one to further awareness. Everything is truly a description...I think.