[ensonar]

Yikes! I'm going to quit the passes right away ... because mostly I am a complete jerk.

Hopefully you're joking! That certainly wasn't what I had in mind when I relayed that comment. It's a combination of the two (recap and passes), in fact a combination of all the techniques that will more than likely help the most.

Am I doing 'okay'? -- fear of syntactic commands aside. Am I allowed to still 'pretend' to be working on being a warrior and eliminating self-importance even though it will take me a very long time to recapitulate?

Well of course you're doing OK! (actually I have no idea).

It will take all of us a long time to recapitulate, the rest of our lives I'd assume. But it's the act of doing it that can be so releasing (and refreshing). I actually find it immensely pleasurable when I go into my "little cave". Even short periods of doing it yields great results. I think my problem in the past has been the emphasis. At this moment, I've realized that if I don't have time for anything else, I will find time for this. For me it has become the most important.