[smellyfart]

Fire fox, I would like to have a fart to fart with you. You probably projected something into our conversation that wasn't there. You can only ASSUME the nature of our agreement, just like I can only ASSUME that Ensonar and BratscheWarrior feel the same way that I do in regards to this CHALLANGE. Unless of course you can SEE. Firefox, can you see?

For me this is a challenge in unbending intent. I have recently stopped smoking cold turkey (4 days) I did it by excersing my unbending intent. I want to apply it too jacking off in order to gain a better sense of what unbending intent is.


PEACE!

[Nick]

Count me in on the no sex thing as well.
Well done Smellyfart on the cold turkey. I recently did the same thing with cannabis.
I feel great now. No urge to go back to it. Lets all move forward on our unbending intent.

[firefox]

i didn't mean for this to be a competition. i'm not doing this for a reward...or ummm...bragging rights.

Then why make it known to others that you're going to do it? You can make it known to people and still not feel self-important? Are you a formless warrior?

You can only ASSUME the nature of our agreement,

That's a good excuse when you want to hide something from yourself.

I have recently stopped smoking cold turkey (4 days) I did it by excersing my unbending intent.

And now you're bragging about it for what reason?
To say that you've given up smoking thanks to intent seems an exaggeration, too. It's too hard to intend, and even though I can't know what you can, somehow your whole question in this thread and the way you write about things makes me think you can't intend, sorry. As for smoking, drugs, sex, etc., people give these things up all the time with normal human will (not a magician's will)

[ensonar]

Firefox, I can understand your confusion. And I'm sure that you're not totally correct, and also not totally incorrect. Things are not always so black and white.

Living in the world and experiencing the way we react to things, and especially the way that the general population reacts to things, we can become very suspicious when anyone claims to act without self-importance.

Now, I'm not saying that any of us here are free of self-importance.

However, I know for a fact that through this path I have lost a bit of self-importance and self-concern. I can still at times be a completely self-absorbed ass, but I usually can see it for what it is, even if I'm not able to stop it from happening.

In the case of this challenge that we've decided to take, I believe that it truly is for the hell of it. I've gone longer than 40 days before, and I don't expect the outcome of this challenge to really mean much of anything. I may be dead before the end of it anyway. I'm doing it because I can, and because it sounds like fun. And perhaps I'll save a bit of energy, or at the very least learn something about myself in the process.

Don Juan mentioned that "a warrior never denies himself of anything". When it comes to trying to stop ourselves from doing something, this can be a very puzzling concept; stopping without denying. I haven't quite figured that one out yet, but little by little this concept seems to be growing on me, or into me.

[ryan]

"Impeccability begins with a single act that has to be deliberate, precise, and sustained. If that act is repeated long enough, one acquires a sense of unbending intent, which can be applied to anything else. If that is accomplished the road is clear. One thing will lead to another until the warrior realizes his full potential"

So I guess if you do any act deliberatly, precisely, and sustain it you set the stage for impeccability. This realization exicted me enough to just stop smoking just like nick. It's so easy. You just have to want to do it and POOF

[smellyfart]

Ryan I couldn't agree with you more. You are an absolute GENIUS!

[BratscheWarrior]

PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT........

Gotta blow off steam/flyers mind.

Why the fuck am i doing this? Making myself feel antsy. Came in contact with 2 real pretty girl today....You are being tested my friend. Jesus Christ. Over a month to go. How could i make this agreement? Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. You think that sugar will make the symptoms go away? You fucking moron! You are pitiful. You are our food. Eat shit., see if we care. Keep twitching my friend. You can't go even 10 days? Give up! It's convenient! Who are you fooling?



Just getting this of my chest. i'll make it.

[ensonar]

It's alright Bratsche. We all go through that sort of thing. I'm feeling pretty damn antsy in me pantsy as well.

But if you're determined to give up on sex and think that sex is an energy outburst, than I wonder how much more energy will you lose in your attempt to stay away from it?

That one always gets me. Whenever I make a decision to stop using some feature of my inventory, and then when inevitably I become antsy, uncomfortable, on edge, bitchy, etc. I begin wondering this same thing.

I'm pretty sure the best/only way to root out any ingrained habit is through ceaseless recapitulation. So is what we're doing right now a useless indulgence?

Firefox, I think we could use some advice.

[BratscheWarrior]

Forgot to mention that in the last 10 days, i have been having more dreams. Not dreaming unfortunately, but dreams nevertheless.

Is this happening to anyone else?

[ensonar]

Definitely. Pretty strange dreams. In fact there was one I was going to mention here, but I'd forgotten till just now.

A few days ago, I dreamt that I was doing a magical pass that I've never learned or seen anywhere before. It involved me reaching out in front of me, almost in the same manner as one of the passes for the center of decisions, but my hands moved into the shape of a bowl, or as if I were cupping water in my hands. I then performed the pass as if I were pouring the "water" into my mouth. Then I did another one immediately after that was exactly the same, except I poured the "water" over my head and face.

I woke up immediately after and layed there thinking about it for a few moments. Then I couldn't fall back to sleep, I just layed there awake for a while considering whether I should try and reproduce those passes while awake sometime. I was just about to get out bed and read for a while, until it occurred to me that I should maybe actually drink some water. I didn't feel exceptionally thirsty, but I drank anyway thinking the dream may have indicated a need for water.

I took a few big sips of water and then immediately fell back asleep without even realizing it until I woke up in the morning.

Rather strange experience. Also, I did do the passes from the dream a couple times that day. Basically I just felt kind of dazed that whole day.